im so sick of not getting invited to do things with my friends. like what the fuck. this sucks and i’m so tired of it and it literally makes me cry. part of me just wants to pack up everything and move away because its like no one actually wants to hang out with me. my parents dont even want me around or to hang out with me anymore. i’m hate feeling like people don’t like me. all i do is try to be a nice person but i have such a hard time making friends and all of my friends are together and drinking and i wasn’t even fucking invited. and its like it didn’t even occur to them i might want to hang out with them and do christmas things in dc. i’m so done with this entire year. 2013 has been the worst year of my life and i literally cannot wait for it to be over. fuck everyone. i’m done with the shit. sometimes i really think it’d be better to be alone because then there’s no room for me to be disappointed. if i didn’t hate being alone, i would have left a long time ago. and the worst thing is i stayed around so i wasn’t alone, and yet i end up alone every day. i just want someone to like me. and if i don’t deserve friends i really want someone to tell me that. because i’ll change or something. I just need some form of human contact.